The Hopeful Romantic

This was the first thing in my Newsfeed this morning.

I said, "Yes, but it is God who makes the magic."

My son who has been through hell and back this year with the lost of his lady love in July... was promoted and given a full time position at the local Fire Academy. He worked hard for this "magic" and he was rewarded for his hard work.

Sometimes, I have not been rewarded for hard work in life. Sometimes, my hard work has not only gone unappreciated, but I have been put down for putting so much work into a project. I always have dusted my self off and heard my grandma in heaven saying, "Well done, good and faithful servant."

As a Christian I am suppose here those words from God, but my Grandma wrote them to me in a note years ago. I was struggling after having done all I could for all the people in my life and felt helpless to change my life. My children were 7, 5, 3-1/2 and 2. I felt I might die from the heart ache in my life of being unloved and working to be everything to everyone. My grandmother sent this letter and those words held me for many years. 

Now those children are adults age: 26, 24, soon to be 23 and 21. All adults and "adulting well". 😃

My current life is busy just with the 50 hour work week I maintain. I wish I didn't have to work so many hours, but at the present time it pays the bills. I don't have any volunteer work and I know a lot of Mom's who work harder than I do. I have Saturday events every other weekend, but they will be paid. This coming week is our Annual School Fall Carnival at school, called the Boulder Bash. (Our school is Boulder Creek Elementary.) That will give me a fun thing to do. I don't go for adult parties, so I can say, "I did Halloween."

I noticed today that the Chakra colors are the same as the colors of the rainbow: red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. We usually look at the rainbow colors top to bottom and the Chakra colors are bottom to top, but if the arc of the rainbow was above a person and the circle arched through the body the red would be at the bottom and violet at the head. Yes, I am a hopeless (hopeful) romantic.

I am not thinking about how to create world peace or save the environment. I spent free time today figuring out how to make a picture showing the rainbow in a circle with a person sitting at the bottom of the picture showing the Chakra colors. Of course, I did four loads of laundry, a load of dishes, grocery shopped for the week and folder enough clothes to outfit my son for two weeks, while solving my Chakra puzzle. 

I listen to my 1960's Folk Rock music, watch the hummingbirds and create whatever my heart desires. My work friends have their ball games, swim meets, and other kids stuff for the weekend. Some of the emptynesters are watching plays, going to concerts and setting at the lake outside their RV's on the weekend. I'm just thankfully, resting in the nest and enjoy the music of my childhood.

The music that says,"I had to say I love you in a song", "Cats in the Cradle", "Nothing from Nothing Means Nothing," and "All the Leaves are Brown and the Sky is Gray".

I found these songs on my Pandora last summer and realized that this is what I am all about. The T.V. and media of the 1960's did shape some of my ideals, but the music is where I truly find my heart. Helen Reddy, "I am Woman hear me Roar." John Denver, "Sunshine on my Shoulders". Simon and Garfunkel, "Bridge over Troubled Waters". These all shape who I feel I am. 

My son was explaining to me the "Hipster" movement. He mentioned something about Bohemian and 60's/70's laid back "All is Groovy". I had to laugh. His father may have kept that part of me subdued while my son was growing up, but now that we have had two years on our own...well, that would me.

The Hopeful Romantic. 🎵Sunshine almost always makes me high...🎵